Utah: 1220am in New York City

2 couples are sleeping soundly in he hotel bed..but i am still awake and writing this blog...ya...5 peoples and i am alone...but it's ok..i have my own fun though..haa..

Staying in Best Western Hotel tonight, it's located at the central of China Town..The China Town in NY is the 2nd largest chinese popularity in United Stated.
The largest one is in San Francisco.

Come to think about the trips that I had made in State:
Utah, Las Vegas, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Orlando, Miami, New York, Toronto, Washington DC, MarryLand, Philadelphia and Boston.

With all the trips and my friends I had made here, I tell myself again no regret on the decision to join the company.

I just want to know what I've gained and forget the losses here..
Overall none of us is the loser but the company which invested millions of dollars and now seeing everything is being dumped into the "salty water sea"

Good Night my friends~ Good Night New York City~

Utah : Weird Dream..

Yesterday didnt sleep well in the hotel, keep doing a weird dream, I would say it's a bit scary..

What happen in the dream was that I keep dreaming that I was dreaming ( you get what i am trying to say?) ...Then in the dream i found myself keep awake from dream and looks around in the room and saw my friends are sleeping around me...but when i was trying to wake them up, I found that they couldnt hear me...like i was talking to myself or we are in different world and they couldnt see me anymore...sigh...that's really a weird dream that i had made so far...hopefully that's not a bad sigh..

Heading to Washington tomorrow and back to New York at night. Then will depart to Boston the next day..3 more days, will back to Utah and get ready to go back Sg..see you guys..

Utah: Last Trip in State ~ New York

Making a last trip in State with friends, in New York now...heading to Boston and Washington soon...

By right should enjoy the last trip, but some of them seem like cant get over of the sad news of retrenchment..

The expense and living cost in NY is really scary!!! 1st day took cab from air port to hotel already cost us USD$150!! damn it...then from hotel to Manhattan, a distance of a few miles also cost 50bucks!! crazy!!!

Whatever it is, now i steping on the street in New York..haa..a place where i never think of coming in my life...I should enjoy the trip :)

Utah : 你把我灌醉..

开往城市边缘开把车窗都摇下来
用速度换来一点痛快孤单被热闹的夜赶出来
却无从告白是你留给我悲哀
哦爱让我变得看不开
哦爱让我自找伤害
你把我灌醉你让我流泪
扛下了所有罪我拼命挽回
你把我灌醉你让我心碎爱得收不回
唔……
猜最好最坏都猜
你为何离开可惜永远没有答案
对我你爱的太晚又走的太快
我的心你不明白
我梦到哪里
你都在怎么能忘怀
你那神秘的笑脸是不是说
放不下你是我活该

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在这里, 我也不记得醉了多少次, 但每一次都是美好的回忆.如果可以不用清醒, 我宁愿继续醉下去..

Utah: Reflection

Accepted the fact of being sent back..Life still moves on, and it's time for self reflection on what i had done over the last few months.

Some of my managers feedback that they have high expectation on me when they employed me, but base on the last few months performance, they think i am still not giving my best and they do not know what's the reason.

Reflection:
Partly because now working under parent company and a lot of decisions can not be made, sort of sense of belonging, cant go all the way out. Also, the drive is not there as compare to working in previous company.
Haiz..it's time to buck up once back to sg..

Some of them saying that i always do not stand firm on my principal. Always swing here and there, easily get affected by others. I admitted.

Reflection:
Need to learn how to stand in for own principal and do thing follow my heart and do not get influence by others.

Thanks them for all this valuable feedback, i believe that people fall and move on will succeed..i wish i will be the one..

Utah : Counting Down..

十月二十七日, 将会是我一生中难忘的日子, 因为这是我离开这个充满回忆的地方的一天..
带着满满的的希望而来, 却带着满满的的失望而归.
梦想和一群年轻又有冲劲的朋友一起打拼的日子, 破碎了..
眼看即将和大伙们各分东西的当儿, 心情很不是滋味.

回想起当初刚来的时候, 一转眼却要离开了...很不甘心~~
输了一切, 赢得了友谊, 我将会很珍惜这一群朋友..
CheeWee, Ians, Michelle, Handsome, Emily, Yordia, TingFang, KokHong, Jason, Francis, Andy, WenXuan, Jeremy, Daniel, Kenny, Lenny, Winston, Dave, HuZhong, HouFeng, HuangHe, KhaiLiang, Mark Lee, Mak Lai Ho, Jeff, Eric, WeeHiang, WeeSiang, TaiNam, RuShun, JiaWang, ChaoHong...etc...

一切将从新开始, 但我没有后悔, 只是很不甘心, 真的很不甘心..

Utah : Life Is Like A Boat

Life Is Like A Boat
演唱: Rie fu

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong
We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you thru another day
遠くで息をしてる　透明になったみたい
暗闇に思えたけど　目隠しされてただけ
祈りをささげて　新しい日を待つ
鮮やかに　光る海　その果てまで
(Being far, however you could think in the like darkness which had become transparent does breath just you are blindfolded praying, lowering, to the end of the sea which shines vividly it waits for new day )
Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong
人の心はうつりゆく　抜け出したくなる
つきはまた新しい周期で　舟を連れてく
(In addition as for the being attached where it moves and keeps and stops wanting to sneak away the heart of the person accompanying the boat at new period)

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Since i was born in 1981, i never feel that life is like a boat before, until it hitted me hardly this time..i felt it deeply..