Utah: Last Night at Allegro Apartment Blk 11, Unit 1111

Aprt 1111, 292 Galena Park Blvd, Draper, 84020 Utah.
Tel: 801-501-8202

我在美国八个多月的住址, 一个曾经充满PARTY的地方.
明天以后,一切即将成为回忆了.

刚从纽约回来, 在机场里的关口看到HOUSEMATE和家人正要入关, 可是距离太远了, 叫不到他, 连一句再见都没机会说, 只能远远看着他们, 心里感觉很难受..

回到家里,发现他已经把所有的垃圾都清理干净了, 只留下空空的大厅和他为我煮的晚餐..很感动..

朋友, 再见了!!

Utah: I'm going home..

Tonight will be the last night of our trip in New York..heading back to Utah tomorrow afternoon...Got lot of thing to settle when i go back there..
Need to pack and move out on 23th and return car on the same day as well...After 23the i will become a person with nothing but 2 big luggages..Then still need to go back office to settle some admin stuff..
Probably will stay at my friend's apartment and sleep on the sofa for the following few days...

Still a lot of thing to be settled when go back to sg and KL..work, relationship, family..etc..probably this is what people so called " LIFE "..

But big concern for me now is to make clear which field i want to go for..so that i can concentrate on the job searching..Company did send out a lot of job opporunities but al still semiconductor...I dont know whether I should apply for it ...or keep my determination quit and involve in Customer Service ..

No body can help but myself...i know...i know...

Utah: 1220am in New York City

2 couples are sleeping soundly in he hotel bed..but i am still awake and writing this blog...ya...5 peoples and i am alone...but it's ok..i have my own fun though..haa..

Staying in Best Western Hotel tonight, it's located at the central of China Town..The China Town in NY is the 2nd largest chinese popularity in United Stated.
The largest one is in San Francisco.

Come to think about the trips that I had made in State:
Utah, Las Vegas, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Orlando, Miami, New York, Toronto, Washington DC, MarryLand, Philadelphia and Boston.

With all the trips and my friends I had made here, I tell myself again no regret on the decision to join the company.

I just want to know what I've gained and forget the losses here..
Overall none of us is the loser but the company which invested millions of dollars and now seeing everything is being dumped into the "salty water sea"

Good Night my friends~ Good Night New York City~

Utah : Weird Dream..

Yesterday didnt sleep well in the hotel, keep doing a weird dream, I would say it's a bit scary..

What happen in the dream was that I keep dreaming that I was dreaming ( you get what i am trying to say?) ...Then in the dream i found myself keep awake from dream and looks around in the room and saw my friends are sleeping around me...but when i was trying to wake them up, I found that they couldnt hear me...like i was talking to myself or we are in different world and they couldnt see me anymore...sigh...that's really a weird dream that i had made so far...hopefully that's not a bad sigh..

Heading to Washington tomorrow and back to New York at night. Then will depart to Boston the next day..3 more days, will back to Utah and get ready to go back Sg..see you guys..

Utah: Last Trip in State ~ New York

Making a last trip in State with friends, in New York now...heading to Boston and Washington soon...

By right should enjoy the last trip, but some of them seem like cant get over of the sad news of retrenchment..

The expense and living cost in NY is really scary!!! 1st day took cab from air port to hotel already cost us USD$150!! damn it...then from hotel to Manhattan, a distance of a few miles also cost 50bucks!! crazy!!!

Whatever it is, now i steping on the street in New York..haa..a place where i never think of coming in my life...I should enjoy the trip :)

Utah : 你把我灌醉..

开往城市边缘开把车窗都摇下来
用速度换来一点痛快孤单被热闹的夜赶出来
却无从告白是你留给我悲哀
哦爱让我变得看不开
哦爱让我自找伤害
你把我灌醉你让我流泪
扛下了所有罪我拼命挽回
你把我灌醉你让我心碎爱得收不回
唔……
猜最好最坏都猜
你为何离开可惜永远没有答案
对我你爱的太晚又走的太快
我的心你不明白
我梦到哪里
你都在怎么能忘怀
你那神秘的笑脸是不是说
放不下你是我活该

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在这里, 我也不记得醉了多少次, 但每一次都是美好的回忆.如果可以不用清醒, 我宁愿继续醉下去..

Utah: Reflection

Accepted the fact of being sent back..Life still moves on, and it's time for self reflection on what i had done over the last few months.

Some of my managers feedback that they have high expectation on me when they employed me, but base on the last few months performance, they think i am still not giving my best and they do not know what's the reason.

Reflection:
Partly because now working under parent company and a lot of decisions can not be made, sort of sense of belonging, cant go all the way out. Also, the drive is not there as compare to working in previous company.
Haiz..it's time to buck up once back to sg..

Some of them saying that i always do not stand firm on my principal. Always swing here and there, easily get affected by others. I admitted.

Reflection:
Need to learn how to stand in for own principal and do thing follow my heart and do not get influence by others.

Thanks them for all this valuable feedback, i believe that people fall and move on will succeed..i wish i will be the one..